Time flies as always, and it seems quite natural that 2007 is going away. For some people who had a terrible year, they just wish this year can go as fast as possible, and for some others, they really wish to stay where they are forever. Fortunately, time is fair for everybody, like it or not, you guys have to get into 2008.

Everybody makes mistakes, and it's important for people to learn from those mistakes. Straying on the sidewalk is not something we are proud of, and yet if we have the guts to correct it, we are fine. 2007 was never easy for me, maybe I was destined to undergo these things in my life. Given me choices, I would have had other better alternatives. Anyway, when I look back at this point, I just don't regret what I have done, and still I am living my life.

I was dreaming about writing a list of things-to-do, and things-not-to-do in 2008, but thinking about my passion and flexibility, I guess will just follow my dreams and heart. Instead of being rational, I'd rather be emotional. Sounds ridiculous, but I guess this is the only place I am entitled not to give a darn about anything. Because this is my utopia! Man! Mine!

After this crucial time here in 2007, lots of things will be clear in the beginning of 2008. Hopefully good, still there can be lots of unpredictability. Anything that happens can change my life completely. Maybe I should not exaggerating the consequences, and maybe making a specific plan would be better. A plan? I hate making plans. It's not romantic, it's not cool...I ain't a nerd! Or maybe this is why I didn't get things I really wanted in 2007. Maybe this is my major weakness? Yay, I found my personality shortage in 2007, what a big achievement!

In 2007, I enjoyed most of the time staying in bed late till almost noons;

             I went to some places without considering where they were, as long as I was happy;

             Love made me forget who I was and lose myself;

             Pressure failed to make me work as hard as I was supposed to;

             There were two tests that I could be proud of, which once again built up my confidence;

             The confidence I had got me into the dilemma I am still afraid to think about;

             There were ecstasy and agony came to me, making my life complicated;

             Disappointments always haunted me even though things had passed for a long time;

             I paid my price for the lessons I could not learn in school.

All in all, 2007 is not an ideal year, but maybe just because of some imperfection in life, I can feel who I am, and where I am; I can live my life like a real human being.

2008 is coming soon, and as always, I have so many dreams and hopes for the next coming year. I am embracing my youth, enjoying my life, and I hope everybody can have what they want in their lives, and enjoy every moment in their lives.

Happy New Year!

Well, technically, it's already Christmas now, not eve, but it doesn't matter. Anyway, for the record, I just want to remind myself that I should just enjoy the last Christmas here in SJTU. There were lots of things going on lately, and honestly it was really rough to have gone so far till now. I am still waiting for my day to come, but it seems the more I want something, the harder for me to get it. I felt bad about that, but after I sat down to really think about it, maybe it's not as bad as I thought. The best job might not very well be the best job for me. Now, when I think about the offer I got till now, maybe I am supposed to do it. It is not some kind of a fancy job which everyone might be dreaming of, but it is down-to-earth most suitable for me at this point. I will call the HR tomorrow to confirm my decision, hopefully this is not too late, since they have been waiting for me for a long time. I was a little bit greedy to get something not belonging to me, and I failed. It was normal.

It is kind of ironic that in the end, I get back to where I started. Had I known this, I would have stopped this tedious job hunting for a long time to engage in my real business. But it's not all worthless to spend so much time on 'nothing', I finally get to know what I want, and what I should do. I should pay this price, if I don't know who I am in the first place. Thank god, the price is not too much. Thinking ahead of time is the lesson I learned this time.

Or let me look at it this way, I still get what I wanted, especially this is something I started thinking about before everything. Sometimes, I am so amazed how surprising and how coincidental everything could be in my life. I didn't mean to plan anything, but it seems everything is being well planned by myself unconsciously.

This Christmas is like last Christmas-I get time to think about my life and myself. Hopefully, this time I will not be led to some sort of dead end like I was last time. Sometimes, only praying is not enough, and instead of being superstitious, I really need to think about where I am, and what I am capable of. On the road to learn to be more sophisticated and tactful, I seem to have paid too much.

At this crucial time of my life, I hope the decisions I made are right in the future. For each decision, there would be tons of scenarios in which my life would be so dramatically different. But all of these scenarios should have just one theme-a happy life!

I have been writing blogs for years, and at this point right now, it's quite important to back up my space blogs somewhere. So I decided to do this in several ways, in case something might happen in the future.

Testing...

My little ham gave me a show the other day, and Justin Timberlake was singing for him! AWESOME!

I should have recorded them more clearly...:P

After a long time in a low self-esteem period, I realize that I am not a superman after all once again. I have to fight desperately, even just for a slice of bread, because I can't get it with just a glance of a superman. I am a normal man, and if I am put in a pool with tons of different people, there must be tons of them who are better than me in some ways. I can't stand out with my delusions of grandeur. I will have to face the cruelty in the real life, because I am not a superman who can defeat all the obstacles effortlessly. Even the seemingly slightest progress will be so hard to gain, only when I am fully concentrated and constantly striving can I get it. With tens of thousands of talented people out there, this is not kidding. The trivial mistake which you might very well ignore will cost you so much that you might regret in the end. Walking on the ice is never safe, but this is just what I have to deal with every day. I always like to encourage myself with the saying: The one God loves, God chastens.

I don't really know how fast the time is lately, and everything seems to be passing me by so quickly. As a matter of fact, I didn't realize my real situation until it was a little bit late and urgent. Seriously, I really hate sugar-coated bullets, and I have already put myself in a difficult situation which is not bright or promising. I need to struggle and strive so hard for my survival this time again, and there is no difference from 3 years ago. It's gross and disgusting, and I have to swallow it.

Will I find my way out? Everybody says so, even when they don't know where to go and what to do.

He put on his nice jacket, and got ready to go. While he was chatting with me casually like we used to do in the dorm, she came inside, and for the last time, asked him once again:" How about we offer you ADP?" He was very polite like years ago, and declined the offer in a nice way. She did not look at other people, and wished the rest of us luck. I was gazing at her, trying to get the attention, but it was not working. Then I realized that maybe it was just something I didn't need to have. If it happens, it happens. Nothing can change it, so just let it be. It was so similar to years ago when he was always the center of attention. Everything was seemingly the same, but I guess maybe what we have gained in the past few years might be quite different, which made us who we are. It was short that afternoon, but what left inside my head was so much, and so complicated. Differences are from little trivial things you might not be able to notice when it comes, and those differences can define whether you can succeed, and your future.

On the crossroads, I gave in; I breathed out; I freaked out; I was left out; I was crossed out; I was kicked out; I freaked out; I cried out; I reached out; and only to find I was the only one who can save myself from the nothing I have become...

Another week is coming, and there will be lots of things to be determined. Hope I am lucky enough to get things I wanted. I ain't a bad person; I ain't a perfect person, but I do deserve some of the good things here in my life...

Let's see...Bless...

Sally asks Jackie:" Would you like to have fun for the rest of your life or you want to be with me for the rest of your life?"

Jackie thinks for a moment, then says:"Why don't we have fun together for the rest of our lives?"

Then Sally runs into Jackie's arms...

That's how I meet them, and decide to nurture them for the rest of their lives.

Camera shy...		Jackie and Sally
Sally Show		Jackie Show

:)~~~