Blame me for my carelessness, or I don't know what's wrong with my 60G portable hard disk which has my 30G music, 20G MVs and most importantly, 3G precious pictures that I have been keeping since the third year in university.  When I got up this morning as usual, I turned on the computer to listen to my music, and I found my hard disk was not working. I didn't take it seriously, because it happened yesterday, and it worked later on. I thought it was because of the damn hot weather, and when I turned off the computer last night, I didn't unplug the hard disk safely, because I always did that, and there was nothing wrong with it due to my previous experience. This time, I was wrong! My portable hard disk which has been used for my ftp for westernmusic board is officially down! I didn't realize how hard it will be for me until I habitually opened windows media to listen to my songs. Oops! I can't listen to them anymore, and I can't see my pictures any more---I can't reminisce any more!!! Then I started to panic.

Up till now, I don't know what I am going to do with the lost data, what a loss! Even though I went to Xujiahui to buy a new hard disk this afternoon when I the temperatre was like 40 Celsius degrees. I thought I would have felt better after I got the new bigger hard disk which means the hope for me, but when I got back I found that the data that was lost can never be made up. That's a shame!

Maybe it's too late to take good care of that old hard disk now, but it's not too late to take good care of the new one. While remembering to back up the data every so often, I should also unplug the hard disk safely every time I turn off the computer. I don't think I can afford another loss of the important data, because I feel the lost data has taken its toll on me now.

Anyways, to look at the bright side, this new bigger size hard disk (120G) means I can store much more information in it, and I can store much more new music too. The only thing I am worried about is if it's safe to use it as the ftp again, I should think twice before I do it. Maybe I should just use my computer hard disk as the upload ftp, which doesn't have enought space for massive pieces of music, and it can just hold some MVs or something. I dont' really know right now. After this loss, I feel extremely insecure about the portable hard disks, who knows when it will break down without giving you any omens, and in the end only you have to suffer the pain of losing the precious things.

Thank god, I have some back up music in the lab computer, and it's just about 10G. But it's better than none. Right now, I have to start from the beginning to cellect music and stuff...Way to go, Mr.~~

I would just stay in my dorm though there is no air conditioner.

I would buy all the food from the mall, and never step out of the room.

I would put my feet in a bucket of cold water while I am playing DotA.

I would take a cold water shower every 2 hours.

I would order food instead of going to the refectory.

I would put talcum powder all over my body.

I would sleep on the ground at night, because it's cooler.

...

OMG!! I can't believe it's 40℃ today!!!! Shanghai is killing me, and I have to do those things above.

Wondering when the rain can visit this burning land...Right now, I am completely sure that I won't go home this summer, and that means I will have to spend all my time in this hot city for the summer.  There are lots of things I want to do, but I just don't know where to start, and I am pretty confused too. Being stuck in this hot city makes me wonder how the ancient people survived without air-conditioners, or it was not hot at all then because there was much less green house gas at that time, which means the average temperature in summer is maybe 10 degrees celsius lower. Lucky them! 

I need to get some insecticide, because there are lots of ants in my dorm!!!! I thought I could live with them at the beginning, because I don't feel like killing anything, but ever since they climb to my desk, my bed, and everywhere, and even bit me, I don't think I can take this any more. I am going to get the insecticide TODAY, and KILL THEM ALL!!!!!! I am going to show them my evil side, which is really scary!

I wish I could get away from this hot weather and enjoy the cool air on the prairie or beside the lotus lake...hmmm...

Just came back from the movie premiere, and I loved it. It is a great movie, and this is my first time to watch a movie premiere. I had a great time there. All those amazing transformers just waken my childhood dreams. It's very interesting that most of the people going there to watch transformers are guys in their 20s or 30s--My PEERS! We grew up in the same times, and we watched the same cartoons, sharing a lot in common!

Here are some cool pics:

The Good	The Bad	The Great Hero!!	Sam's best friend!

There are some people who can work and study efficiently from the very beginning till the very end without any hesitation or stop, and I really admire those kind of people who I have been dreaming of to be when I got into elementary school. But I am me, and nothing can change that. I have my gifts and I have my own of way of doing things. It's just that I need something to motivate the inner me.

Right now, it's the rainy season here in Shanghai, and it's unbearably swelteringly hot and sticky. I can't get back home now, because school won't end until the mid July. So what I am doing every day is wasting my time. But hopefully, things will change after I get some prods which I need deperately as the compliments that I need.

I am still at this crucial cross roads. Maybe I am a little bit late to realize what the real situation is, but I somehow still believe that I can make this through, and I will be fine. Or maybe I am just being too much blindly optimistic, and I have been overrating myself for some time, which is very silly. Anyhow, I still believe in myself that my day will come...

Hope these are not just the delusions of grandeur.

This is summer is still as hot as last year, but the only difference is that up till now I am not sure I could have time to go back home. I need to do lots of things, but it seems to me that every progress has ceased. I need to put myself together and make life going on. Every morning when I wake up because of the unbearable heat, with all the sweat on my body, I just don't feel like going anywhere but staying in the dorm, facing the computer screen and getting rediated by it.

Lately, I am pretty crazy about Warcrat DotA, and I play it every night with my classmates who are also as crazy as me. That is a lot of fun. When you indulge yourself in this killing and revenging battle, you just easily get over all the sadness and hardship in your life. I have to say, this is the best way of escaping from your life. Yay! But once you realize that you just spend your whole day playing this game, you will regret and think that you are just being a loser again. While enjoying the extreme joy and happiness in the game, you are giving your youth, energy and passion away. Maybe I am exaggerating the impact of this game, but having some sort of self control is never a bad thing, and it will benefit you in your future for sure. All we need to do is to plan our lives well enough, and playing the games can make us more efficient in work.

As for the board T-shirt thing, I just kind of have a feeling that we are following the fad which started lately on BBS. It seems that every board wants T-shirts of their own. In the beginning, it is cool and really self-expressing, but when it comes to the majority, the idea turns out to be a little bit lame. But anyway since I am also in charge of the whole thing, and I should make this work as well as it should be. Plus getting a new T-shirt is never a silly thought. I love new T-shirts! We had some discussion on the board last night, and I am glad that shanefilan is working really hard on this. I really appreciate what he has done on this. Also we are planning to have a sort of meeting up party lately. Actually it should be made a long time ago, but due to different reasons, we never did this. After Christina Aguilera's concert, I met some people who also like to visit WM board, and I realized maybe having this meeting up party is not a bad idea, because there are some people who would come, which is the one of things I am afraid of. So hopefully, with the help of shanefilan, we can make all those things work out.

Alrighty, here is the T-shirt that we are going to make(I made a little bit changes, and the final design is almost like this):