I was so preoccupied by study and work today, and I couldn't have my own time to think about my own things. But when I came back to my dorm, I still feel the same as several days before. It is really hard, and I am confused.

My sister talked to me online the other day, telling me that one of her roomies in Taiwan killed herself, and I was very shocked. Never thought those kind of thing could ever happen to anyone I know, needless to say it's my sister's roomie. Anyway, knowing my sister is ok, I calmed down, but I feel sorry for that poor girl.

I am growing and learning everyday. One of the phD students told me today that I am too simple and not tactful. I was surprised by that, didn't expect that he could say that, since he always treated us like we were his students. It's really touching, and I think I should learned from what he told me. MP used to tell me about it too. When I go to work, I will know how dark the world could be. But I would prefer to know it earlier, who would like to know it after they have been in the situation. It's always better to know something beforehand.

I am playing badminton and running...I should take care of myself...Be good to myself...

Been disappeared for a while, then I am back. And when I read my friends' blogs, I realized that they are having their own life and we are all changing throughout the time. It's a nice thing to see each other growing, and maybe after a while when we get back together, we will see how far we have gone, and how much we have done. Life is always amazing and wonderful...

By reading the blogs, I found it's more worthwhile to keep this blog, and keep on doing whatever I am doing right now. I don't care what people say about me, I just do whatever I think is right. Yeah, I am stubborn, and I know it...

I went running yesterday, and I will keep on doing that, because it's good for my body. Also I will start to play badminton again, because it's fun and good for my body too. Anyway, I didn't feel anything untill this morning, and I know I have worked out too much a little bit yesterday, so I will do it mildly today...Yes, I believe I will be better.

I am running~~

The typhoon is gone, the summer is gone, and it's a little bit hot today...Kicked out of the house in the morning, finding my way back to where I was in the heavy rain in hunger, I found it's hot and humid on campus. I am numb and despaired...It shined a little bit earlier, then it's overcast...Weather changes as someone's face, it's unpredictable.

It's quiet on campus, and everything seems to be just in order. Students waiting outside of the gate; cats sitting on the ground outside BBQ, hoping there will be free food; couples holding hands together, gigling and laughing; classmates sitting in front of the computers, surfing BBS and getting to know what's happening around us...Yeah, I am back as I have never left, but only my friends and I know the estrangement between us. They don't know me any more, and I am back to re-build what belongs to me.

I can't have any expectations any more...Hope everything's will be OK...

I just made a stupid call, and I feel I am just a totally underappreciated fool. I used to have a high expectation of myself and by no means do I deserve that kind of treat. I thought for whatever you do, hope is the only thing you should not give up. But it may not be necessarily true when it comes to emotions. For some reason, it's better to just give up the hope and move on, so that you would not get hurt over and over again. It will be hard and brutal, but it will be the best in the end.

I gave all my heart to someone who doesn't even give a shit about it, treating me like the dirt...Where's my self esteem? where's my self-respect? Am I pathetic? Yeah...Not ready to accept me? Yeah...Understood...I should have listened to my friends' words...Hope it's not too late...

I tried and tried, but it will never work if it's only me trying. I am not a superman, I am not supposed to love you if you don't feel the same way...

Never thought I would experience this too, and I believe that only through this will I be stronger...

Be smarter next time!

This is the first typhoon this year that influenced Shanghai directly. Born in a city where we don't have oceans and big wind, typhoon seems to be something I want to see and experience. I know this sounds silly, but this is just how I feel. Anyways, so far, this so called typhoon is just so so--nothing major happened, and it's way too mild to be called typhoon I suppose. Though most schools in Shanghai have stopped working, yet I don't see anything else that has been influenced by the typhoon except the traffic. I live high enough to have the bigger wind than downstairs, and whenver I opened the window, the wind would blow everything away, and that's just it...I can't think of anything else terrifying other than that.

Typhoon Coming, it seems to be a normal rainy night...			Upstairs, everything's OK~

Typhoon's gone, and tomorrow is another new day. Soon will be Mid-Autumn Day...

I didn't realize how fast it was until the other day Song told me that he was moving to another dorm to live for the rest of his phD years. They all moved! We used to live together, and we used to be in the same class, sharing tears and joy. I didn't say much when they left, largely because I didn't know what to say, as lately there are just too many things happening to me. I always told myself that I can handle whatever comes my way, but now I know that I am not a superman, and I do need help sometimes. Now, everyday life seems to be quieter and I miss those days when we shopped together and we had hot pot together in the dorm. Those good times will never come back, and what left here are just the brutal truth that our future is still unknown and the huge effort we need to make to guarantee a better and safer platform for us to play on in the next following months. I do feel the pressure and sometimes I could wake up in the middle of the night. China is different from many countries in the world, where you need to spare no effort to make the best of everything, otherwise you will lose, and nobody will pity you for anything. In this sense, we are all soldiers.

I didn't say anything when you guys were going, and still I won't say anything now. What I want you to know is that we should all fight for our future and nobody should fall! Good Luck, Bothers! So Long, Bothers!

Like many other cities in the world, Shanghai is building high buildings one after another. Some say that the sky line in Shanghai is just chaotic, but some just love the skyscapers in Shanghai. Well, the new world finacial trading center in Shanghai is still under construction, and right now its hight has already surpassed Jinmao Tower. It looks really nice in spite of some interesting stories about the original designs of the new tower. Anyway, the only thing I don't understand is why the two towers are so close to each other, which makes people think that they are competing with each other. Or maybe people who are making the tower do want to compete with Jinmao in some ways. But to some extent, the short distance between the two towers makes Pudong look more modern and newer. We will see how it will look like in several months...

The Pudong District			Two Towers

I live in Minhang, and still it's in Shanghai. I never thought this place could be full of small creatures. After I cleaned those ants out of my dorm, lately, I found occasionally there are some bugs coming into my dorm without any warning, which are huge and scary with big colourful wings. Sometimes when I am sleeping, and sometimes when I am concentrating on my books or computer. They don't scream or make any noise, but once they come, with those bigs wings, and flying over my head, that's really creepy. I don't want to touch them, because they might be poisonous or harmful. So what I can do is try to kick them out of dorm. To top it off, today, I saw a bird fly into my dorm, and it seemed she was trying to catch those bugs, which was good. But I felt that my dorm is turning into a natural land where predators eat their preys. And who am I? The nature order keeper? Hahaha...Or maybe it's because summer ends, and insects are trying to find a place to pass the winter, or trying to find a place to die in peace. Yeah, year after year, time flies~

It's always said it's the best time to go to Hangzhou when it rains. Well, I did, and every time, I just love this city. Though not as modern as Shanghai, and in some ways very traditional, yet Hangzhou has its own charm.

The West Lake at Sunset		Jump!
Whose Chicken Leg?		Hot Pot~~